Siri Bercakap Dengan Miki – Memang Kerja Mummy ialah Worry!

Everyday, no matter how tired I was I would try my best and gone through Miki’s school books and checked on his home work. The other day I complained about his scribbly Doctor’s handwriting.

Miki was just like many other kids (and adults),wrote according to his mood. Bila mood baik tulisan cantik bila mood takde tulisan macam cakar ayam yang sakit Parkinson.

I told him, “Miki… Miki kena tulis elok-elok, cantik-cantik, kemas-kemas… Baru senang teacher baca. Kalau teacher tengok tulisan Miki bersepah camni, nanti teacher menyampah… Lama-lama teacher jadi malas nak ajar Miki, dia gi ajar budak yang rajin tulis elok-elok aja, apa nak jadi dengan Miki? Mummy risau tau...”

Miki didn’t respond much to what I said that day but his handwriting did improved. About a week later, while he was doing homework, he started telling me about the other kids at school etc.

“Mummy tau tak teacher paling tak suka siapa? Isaac! Tulisan dia kecik gilerrr! Sampai tak nampak… Pastu Clare kan, Mummy, tulis salah-salah… teacher tak suka!… teacher marah Isaac! ishh…. Miki OK, Mummy, Miki Ok lagi…. Mummy jangan risau….” He said reassuringly.

At that point of time, I smiled and as usual I encouraged him to speak more. But inside my heart, there is this cocktail of emotions stirring up. Firstly, I felt so touched that he actually observed what I said and took note that I was worried. Secondly, I couldn’t believe he still remembered it after a long week! He actually thought about what I said until one day when he found an incident at school the he believed could convince me. My baby wanted me to know that he was doing well and he wanted me to stop worrying. Oh. my baby Miki…

Miki, there is not a day that I don’t worry about you, about Rafa, about your Dad… I worry about your studies, your safety, about you getting bullied, about you bullying other kids, about the food you are eating, are you drinking enough water… Is Rafa being treated well? Is Rafa being fed well? Is Daddy driving safely? It is raining, I hope he is not texting while he drives…

Just bear with me lah Ok Miki… Bukan Mummy lah kalau tak merisau-risau setiap masa. Kira macam risau tu sebahagian daripada tugas jadi Mummy… 🙂

PS- anyway, this morning Miki woke up at 7.00am demam… so nampaknya I cannnot go to work, and must care for him. Another risau cycle selagi dia tak sembuh. Alhamdulillah selama ni Miki memang sangat jarang sakit even selsema and I can’t remember when was his last fever. Tolong doakan Miki cepat sembuh insyaAllah . Ni demam pergi concert and graduation semalam kot…

Pictures taken when Miki cheeky was 5 years old in Amsterdam.