This entry is precisely about breastfeeding and for goodness sake, when you are breastfeeding, it doesn’t matter how much you try, you just cant help but to talk about boobs. The Great Big Lactating Boobs!
After breastfeeding my son for five months, on 23 June 2008, my right milk tank was suddenly engorged! Engorged for no reason that I can think of except maybe for watching Mariah Carey’s Touch My Body video and thinking wow! Could that be real?
It started sometime around 4pm when I felt slight throbbing indicating that some nursing or pumping need to be done immediately. But Miki was asleep and I was busy so I figured an hour or two later wouldn’t do no harm.
I forgot about the pain as the baby woke up and I nurse him like I normally do; it might still be there but I was too busy to notice. By 7 the pain started to get a little bit on the way. We were out getting dinner and the moment we got home, I quickly used my electric pump but to my surprise only an ounce of milk was expressed. Oh why so little when it felt like have a whole Lake Toba full of fluid in The Boob?
From that moment on, my breastfeeding nightmare had started. Ladies and gentlemen; you aint feeling no pain until you feel your breast engorged. Trust me; I almost lose my mind! I felt like there’s a nasty prickly porcupine inside The Boob and its growing larger by the minute. At the same time it felt like The Boob was on fire and huge rock hard lumps began to appear. I repeat APPEAR. TO THE NAKED EYES. Horror!
The pain was unbearable. I tried everything. Warm towels to sirih leaves to hot shower. Azman even heat up the tungku for me. Can you imagine? I tungku my boob. When that didn’t help; I used the iron. And I am not kidding.
By ten o’clock I was on the verge of tears. I couldn’t lay down. Not on my back, not on my side.No milk comes out, Miki’s nursing was no help. I was sure then that I was gonna be featured in The Guinness Book of Record; as the first person in the world died of an exploded boob.
I was lucky it was already nighttime; or else I would have gone to the doctor and ask for a mastectomy just about anything that could make the pain go away. Even if it was a jab that could make me stop breastfeeding altogether. Yes it was THAT serious!
It was getting late and I was so tired but too much in pain to do anything but pull my hair out. I tried to pump countless times but still the milk just wouldn’t flow. At last I apply some gamat balm on the lumps that by then have already grown as big as a brick. The agony you cannot think of.
I felt asleep for perhaps 15 minutes while sitting up on the bed. It was already 3 in the morning. This was far more terribble than a contraction or worse – a facial. It was pure torture! Oh what have I done to deserve this? Mariah Carey! Forgive me! Yes your boobs are real! I admit! Release me from this pain…. Pleaseeeeee……
I tried expressing the milk manually and only a few drops come out. I massage the burning lumps painstakingly while writing my will; if I got killed by the explosion of the mammary gland; Miki will inherit my Adsense income., its final. The pain was excruciating beyond any words that I can say…
I was dying… dying….
Then I heard Miki crying…The moment I nurse him with my turbojet missile boob, the milk begin to flow like magic. It overflowed until his face was wet. The lump soften and then gone… together with the pain, within just a minute or two.
Thank God I survived through out the whole ordeal and I live to tell the tale, tale of the anguish of producing world most expensive milk.
New mothers out there, good luck. Count on me for the truth. When you look into my baby’s eyes, as he stares back right into yours… There is no pain in this world that you can’t endure…I will nurse my baby forever more..
Happy Breastfeeding.
oh dear..i am the right person to totally understand what you went through. the only thing that horrifies me for 2nd pregnancy (kalau ada rezeki) is going through the breastfeeding ordeal. i must say you are quite lucky to only have to go through this after 5th month. mine starts after few days giving birth to lisa. the pain of my engorged breast (sheeesshhhh teringat balik pun sakit satu badan) is..is…tak terungkap dengan kata2. i cried and cried trying to express the milk but it only came out so little after pumping like 2 hrs! sakitnya macam dihiris oleh pisau. and worst, my daughter tak reti nak engage! oh dear oh dear. ngerinya teringat balik. sakitttttttttttt!!! so woman, i feel you.
p/s – try putting cabbage leave on your breast. it is known to redakan the bengkak. good luck babe.
Eintanz,
I had engorged breasts a few days after delivery too but I do not remember it as THIS bad… Yes, so sakit macam dihiris dengan pisau.. dan i rasa cam nak amik pisau hiris pun ada.. huaa…
Uuu..Uu..macam fear factor jekk!! =P kepeh kepeh
Dee,
Itu la specialnye jadi seorang ibu:)
Eintanz,
Walaupun i tak kenal u,tapi jangan takut!Breastfeeding adalah benda paling indah di dunia..hmm setiap masalah ada penyelesaiannya..
All the best in ur 2nd pregnancy okies!
hi diyana..
ingat i lagi x?
love to read ur blog.
tq for ur sharing about ur boob experience.
me too penah kena cenggini. mmg sakit bangat. rasa cam nk operate je.
aritu kena i letak gel gamat. sakit bengkak tu hilang. tp bengkak tu stil ada lg.
so nk bg ilang bengkak, i tungku boob tuh. spi boob tu lembik. i mean dh x tegang la. and mkn panadol.
len kali xyah tunggu baby bangun baru nak breastfeed, cipoot kan ader…alah cipoot mcm x biasa…
Nize, bukan citer fear factor tapi citer House kat AXN hari isnin pukul 10pm ahaks.
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Yas, yeaa betulll! 🙂
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Sharminie, u kawan i kat 1st College, UM kan? huuu.. dah ada baby ke? congrats. mmg seksa tul la.. u pun tungku ke? hehe. anyway thanks for visiting.
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Izhu,
Direct line Rena dah tukar, you boleh tanya kat receptionist, ok?
emm..emm..patut a!! tapi..sakit macam hirisan pisau itu membuatkan terasa ngeri & ngilu seperti fear factor jek! keh keh keh =P
ngerinya baca..mmg sapa2 yg breastfeeding akn rasa cmtu ke?
wooo… the scary boob story… macam cerita volcano nak erupt pon ada…
nize terasa ngerii,,,,ye ke tuuuuuu….ko ingat tang lain tuuu
Diyana…larrr…sian akak baca …tu lah len kali jgn ckp2 pasal breast mariah carrey ti lagik…psst!! akak pun selalu tanya…’are those boobs real’…macam tak real kan?…ceh ceh…eiii…mulut akak ni…heheheh
Org tua2 kata…kalau jadi camtu lagik…len kali ambil beberapa kelopak kobis dan balut pada breast…biar sejuk…nanti susu dia keluar…tapi kalau masih takmo keluar kene pi klinik tau…hehehe
Kak Lady, saya dah terkena tulah diraja Mariah Carey,,,hahahha
i have had experienced this on the ‘merdeka day’ – the last day of my confinement! and i tell you, i immideately started shivering and broke into a fever…my hubby had to massage my boobs in front of my mom – gasp!
Salute to all mothers!! 🙂
I am terribly sorry to hear about your ordeal but this post of yours really cracked me up!!!! You are one funny and hip mama 😀
i can scarcely imagine the pain… hope u’ll get through it
aku pun tak nak lagi cakap pasal breast mariah carey
U know.. I can’t believe I’m saying this..but I wish I have the engorged breast.. the only engorged part of my body now would be my flabby belly! This time around my susu not so much and I can’t really breastfeed my lil Adyan cos not sufficient. But I’m still trying..who knows suddenly the Lake Toba would come to me instead.
I still have it until now, my baby is 5 mth 1 wk and 3 dys old. I dunno why… I pumped often and my son is always at the breast. I guess having big boob is a challenge.